Mansion Lyrics - NF

1 [Chorus - Fleurie:]

2 Insidious is blind inception

3 What's reality with all these questions?

4 Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in)

5 Broken legs but I chase perfection

6 These walls are my blank expression

7 My mind is a home I'm trapped in

8 And it's lonely inside this mansion

9 [Verse 1 - NF:]

10 Yo my mind is a house with walls covered in lyrics

11 They're all over the place, there's songs in the mirrors

12 Written all over the floors, all over the chairs

13 And you get the uncut version of life when I go downstairs

14 That's where I write when I'm in a bad place and need to release

15 And let out the version of NF you don't want to see

16 I put holes in the walls with both of my fists 'til they bleed

17 You might get a glimpse of how I cope with all this anger in me

18 Physically abused, now that's the room that I don't want to be in

19 That picture ain't blurry at all, I just don't want to see it

20 And these walls ain't blank, I just think I don't want to see 'em

21 But why not? I'm in here, so I might as well read 'em

22 I gotta thank you for this anger that I carry around

23 Wish I could take a match and burn this whole room to the ground

24 Matter of fact I think I'm a burn this room right now

25 So now this memory for some reason just won't come down

26 You used to put me in the corner, so you could see the fear in my eyes

27 Then took me downstairs and beat me 'til I screamed and I cried

28 Congratulations, you'll always have a room in my mind

29 But I'm a keep the door shut and lock the lyrics inside

30 [Chorus - Fleurie:]

31 Insidious is blind inception

32 What's reality with all these questions?

33 Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in)

34 Broken legs but I chase perfection

35 These walls are my blank expression

36 My mind is a home I'm trapped in

37 And it's lonely inside this mansion (inside this mansion)

38 [Verse 2 - NF:]

39 Yo my mind is a house with walls covered in pain

40 See my problem is I don't fix things

41 I just try to repaint, cover em up, like it never happen

42 Say I wish I could change. Are you confused?

43 Come upstairs and I'll show you what I mean

44 This room's full of regrets, just keeps getting fuller it seems

45 The moment I walk in to it is the same moment that I wanna leave

46 I get sick to my stomach every time I look at these things

47 But it's hard to look past when this is the room where I sleep

48 I look around. One of the worst things I wrote on these walls

49 Was the moment I realized that I was losing my mom

50 And one of the first things I wrote was "I wish I would've called"

51 But I should just stop now, we ain't got enough room in this song

52 And I regret the fact that I struggled trying to find who I am

53 And I lie to myself and say I do the best that I can

54 Shrug it off like it ain't nothing like it's out of my hands

55 Then get ticked off whenever I see it affecting my plans

56 And I regret watching these trust issues eat me alive

57 And at the rate I'm going they'll probably still be there when I die

58 Congratulations, you'll always have a room in my mind

59 The question is: Will I ever clean the walls off in time?

60 [Chorus - Fleurie:]

61 Insidious is blind inception

62 What's reality with all these questions?

63 Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in)

64 Broken legs but I chase perfection

65 These walls are my blank expression

66 My mind is a home I'm trapped in

67 And it's lonely inside this mansion (inside this mansion)

68 [Verse 3 - NF:]

69 So this part of my house, no one's been in it for years

70 I built the safe room and I don't let no one in there

71 Cause if I do, there's a chance

72 That they might disappear and not come back

73 And I admit I am emotionally scared to let anyone inside

74 So I just leave my doors locked

75 You might get other doors to open up but this doors not

76 Cause I don't want you to have the opportunity to hurt me

77 And I'll be the only person that I can blame when you desert me

78 I'm barricaded inside

79 So stop watching

80 I'm not coming to the door

81 So stop knocking, stop knocking

82 I'm trapped here

83 God keep saying I'm not locked in

84 I chose this

85 I am lost in my own conscience

86 I know that shutting the world out ain't solving the problem

87 But I didn't build this house because I thought it would solve 'em

88 I built it because I thought that it would be safer in there

89 But it's not, I'm not the only thing that's living in here

90 Fear came to my house years ago I let 'em in

91 Maybe that's the problem

92 Cause I've been dealing with this ever since

93 I thought that he would leave, but it's obvious he never did

94 He must have picked the room and got comfortable and settled in

95 Now I'm in the position it's either sit here and let him win

96 Or put him back outside where he came from, but I never can

97 Cause in order to do that I'd have to open the doors

98 Is that me or the fear talking?

99 I don't know anymore